Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Saturday, September 26, 2009

First day home

We were released from the hospital on Saturday afternoon which was very welcomed. Poor Morgan was at the end of his baby patience in regards to Steve and I being gone. When we got home he started crying and just clung to Steve and then to me and then back to Steve. It was so sad and it made me cry a little too. I felt so bad for him having to go so long without us and not understanding why. He is relaxing back to normal though. Sunday we decided to have no visitors and made it just us all day so there would be no stress on Morgan thinking we were going to leave again. Steve discovered also that Morgan is cutting a big molar in the back of his mouth so that is definitely not helping matters.

Lily is doing perfect. She is such a sweet and calm baby. She seems absolutely relaxed in my arms and it's hard not to cuddle her constantly. I will admit I have been cuddling her non-stop since we got home. :) I have a couple days of cuddling to catch up on though. It is so amazingly wonderful to have her here. After all the initial stress at the hospital I am ready to enjoy these first precious weeks with her. I am pretty shocked actually on how smoothly everything is going so far. It just seems so much easier this time around. I am not completely stressed out and I am able to really appreciate and enjoy this time with Lily.

I can't get over how small she is even though she is the same size Morgan was when he was born she seems so tiny. The pictures do not accurately depict her size, she looks much larger in the pictures than in real life.

Here are a few pictures from Saturday and Sunday.

Lily face 4 days old

Lily yawn 4 days old

Lily 4 days old

Morgan and Lily


The long road home

Yesterday Lily got a clean bill of health and was able to move upstairs with Melissa and I. What a relief to finally have her in the room with us. We got our reintroduction to the happy land of newborn with all its sleep deprived goodness. Melissa is recovering slowly and is still in alot of pain. When they gave her the spinal they hit a nerve, resulting in what she describes as 'the worst pain I've ever felt' shooting down her leg. Coming from Melissa that is not a statement to be taken lightly. Ever since she has had very painful pins and needles down that leg and even the slightest contact is agony. In a weird twist heavy pressure is actually less painful, it's light brushes against the leg that make things go crazy. They took an MRI on her back but didn't find anything. The Neurologist and the Anesthesiaologist both seem to think that this is a case of irritation that will pass on its own in a few days/weeks. We're hoping that's the case.

We're pretty much ready to go home now. I'm writing this as the three of us wait to get our final go ahead to walk out the door. I'm excited to be going home and for the opportunity to spend some time with my boy. Reports from the homefront indicate that Morgan has just about hit the end of his rope. Clingy, grumpy, generally unhappy, and getting more so by the minute. It's going to be hard coordinating our return, because from the second I walk in the door if one of us isn't taking care of Morgan there is going to be a serious baby meltdown.

One challenge down... countless more to follow.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

The state of things

Details detail details... we just finished going through rounds with the medical team in the NICU so I'm going to update this while things are still pretty fresh in my mind. Lots of lingo here that I'm not going to bother explaining, hopefully it will be clear enough.

When Lily was born there was pretty heavy meconium staining in the amniotic fluid. While her APGAR scores were 8 and 8 she quickly showed signs of respiratory distress. From what I saw on the monitors on her own her O2 saturation counts were at 40 - 60 and her respiration was at around 150 - 160 breaths per minute. For reference what they like to see is 92 or higher on O2 saturation and around 40 breaths per minute. They started her on blow by oxygen (just holding an oxygen mask over her) and her o2 saturation counts came up quickly but her breathing was still really fast. They decided that she needed to make a trip to the NICU at that point.

Once in the NICU they started her on an IV and got her hooked up to a vapotherm. The vapotherm blows humidified air plus O2 in through some tubes they put up Lily's nose. They started her on pretty high levels of O2 but since yesterday afternoon they have been working on weaning her off of that and she has been doing pretty good at that. Because the Vapotherm blows air into her stomach it was necessary to put a tube down her throat to vent that out. They also took a blood draw for cultures and tests of her immune system to check for any sort of infections. Finally they set her up with a round of antibiotics just in case there was any infection we needed to be concerned about.

With the vapotherm on Lily wasn't able to eat, so while she was getting IV fluids her first food wasn't until late last night and apparently she threw up the first stuff they tried to feed her. She had a very grumpy night, most likely because she was so hungry. I have to admit I was a little pissed off when I came in this morning and found that she had screamed herself hoarse over the course of the night. I was able to give her a bottle, which she ate and kept down and then she passed out and slept peacefully. Later in the morning Melissa was able to give her a bottle as well and cuddle her close. Which I think was really good for both mom and baby. It's killing Melissa not to have Lily close to her right now.

As of this morning things are looking pretty good. Lily is bouncing back quickly. Her respiratory support is down to just humidified room air, so no additional O2 needed just some help with flow. Her numbers have been excellent since last night and it's likely she'll be off respiratory support entirely by EOD. No news on blood cultures as of yet but she isn't showing any outward signs of infection and the tests that we do have results for have all been good. There are a couple concerns outstanding at this point:

1. She is still receiving respiratory support and needs to be weaned completely off of that. Once off they are going to want to monitor her for at least 24 hours to ensure that she is doing well on her own.

2. She still hasn't demonstrated that she will eat consistently as of yet. Past two feeds have gone well but there needs to be more of a pattern established before they'll call that good.

3. Blood work to test for infections is still outstanding and we don't have even the preliminary results (at 24 hours) on that yet. Final results will be available 48 hours from the start of the culture, which would be tomorrow sometime.

All said I am optimistic that we will be getting our baby girl back soon. Saturday is looking like the most likely scenario, with the highly unlikely chance that she will be discharged by Friday. If Lily bucks the trend and things deteriorate then we could be looking at a long stay, but I'm confident that isn't going to happen.

Now you know about as much as I do. :)

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Lilian Philipena Wax












Lilian Philipena Wax

Born 8:44am 8 lbs .9 oz 20.5 inches long

Blond hair and blue eyes, of course! ;)

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Poor Morgan...

Poor Morgan has managed to pick up his first sniffly stuffed up nose! It is so sad. He is very snotty and congested. It has made for an interesting past few days that's for sure. Pretty poor timing since he is about to go through a major life change on top of it.

Our friends Beth and Jim came over with literally bags of goodies for Morgan! Beth's daughter was nice enough to give up her giant stuffed horse and give it to Morgan. He loves it, but it is a little big for him right now. We also received a ton of awesome books, movies, and cd's for the baby. I am so very thankful for their generosity!

I posted this on Facebook, but realize there are still some of you out there that do not obsess over FB as Steve and I do.

So, here is a short video for your viewing pleasure of Morgan on his new horse...




A funny little tidbit about the horse is that it is just a tad larger than our Black Lab, Morwyn. Steve was mean and made the horse jump at her and now she is frightened of it. So frightened that when we let her near it she tried to chomp its face off. The horse is now safely behind a baby gate where it cannot be destroyed. :)

Friday, September 18, 2009

Last Days...

Yesterday I had my official last OB appointment until the surgery on Wednesday. My blood pressure was high which is very unusual for me. The doctor seemed concerned and wants me to go check it at the pharmacy every day. We think it is because I am off the pain pills and the excessive amount of pain I am in now is making my BP rise. Other than that everything looks good. Monday I go in for blood work and then Wednesday I go to the hospital at 5:30am! UGh.

This morning we went swimming with Fred at the Lynnwood pool and then went and had lunch at Than Brothers and had yummy veggie Pho'. Morgan loved the Pho' and the cream puffs. :) He made a giant mess and I seriously felt like I was going to have an anxiety attack over it. I know babies make messes at restaurants, but I get paranoid like maybe that is not acceptable and I shouldn't let it happen which is impossible. I remember when he was a newborn I was frightened to take him anywhere in case he started crying, well I got over that after a while so is this just one of those things I will get over too? or what? Is it okay to take your toddler to a restaurant and feed them with a mess on the floor beneath them? Steve and I picked up as much as we could, but I still felt terrible and felt like people were thinking we were bad patrons.

Anyway, besides my crazy neuroses it was adorable to watch him eat the Pho'. You will notice he is brushing his hair with the basil. The funniest thing is on our way out to the car I noticed he had taken one of the big plastic soup spoons! Fred was nice and took it back to the restaurant for us. ;) Here are some pics from lunch!





Thursday, September 17, 2009

First day of Preschool

Wednesday was Morgan's first day at Inglemoor Co-op Preschool. Aside from a little bit of confusion on what was expected from the new parents it went really well. Morgan is very independent and likes to do his own thing. He went around to different activity centers of his choosing. He even painted and colored for his first time which was very cute. The painting was a bit terrifying, but fun. The other Moms seemed really inviting and friendly for the most part and the teacher was very nice. Steve is the only dad there so he is feeling a bit awkward about taking him while I recover, but hopefully he will get over that. It is so strange to see Morgan in a school setting. He is still my tiny little baby! He shouldn't be sitting in chairs eating snack with other little ones yet. It was fun to see his reaction to everything though. At clean up time he cried when Steve had to take away his broom. That was the only not so fun time. Other than that it was great!

The day started out with play time outside then we all go inside for circle time where we sing together. Next was snack time and then off for free play. The day ended with clean up and a group circle for more songs. And the very last thing is an apple stamp on the hand. :)



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Thursday, September 10, 2009

Wow...

Today I had my very last appointment with my OBGYN until the surgery. He gave us the run down on the entire deal along with having me sign the surgery waiver forms etc. I actually have ONE more appointment next week before the surgery with one of his partners since my Doctor will be on vacation but then that is it! Baby day is Wednesday September 23rd. I check into the hospital at 5:30am and then the actual surgery is scheduled for 7:30am.

The realization that it is really this close is very daunting. I am trying to relax my mind and just not think about it until I have to or I will make myself go crazy(ier). I also had another chat with the OB about the pain pills and everything is fine. I am going to stop taking them all together in a week.

Deep breaths....

Teething, Preschool toddler class, and stuff...

Ahhh, Morgan is cutting two new teeth and not just any old teeth but actual MOLARS! OW! He has been extra grumpy and screaming at the top of his lungs randomly which alerted us something was up. Sure enough there are two molars cutting through the gums on the top. He doesn't want to sleep or be cuddled down to sleep like usual so Steve and I are also not sleeping.

Today we are going to Kirkland to visit the Inglemoor Cooperative Preschool and register Morgan. We got lucky and there were just three spots left. Steve and I both are going to take him next Wednesday and then Steve will be taking him by himself until after I heal from the surgery. The cool thing is they will let me bring Lily in a front carrier until she is 5-6 months so I won't have to worry about finding a sitter until then. I am really excited to see Morgan in a learning environment with other kids his age. We were going to the Hospital play group but the babies there were not as developed as he was so it wasn't much fun for him. This should be completely different. I will definitely be updating on how it goes.

Morgan also does a new baby trick. If I meow like a cat and ask him, "Where is your kitty?" he will go find his stuffed cat and bring it to me! It is so cute.

We are down to less than two weeks until Lily arrives and I feel completely unprepared. We still need to buy some baby items and I have that terrible nesting urge to make the entire house spotless which I am completely incapable of at this point.


That's all for now!

Monday, September 7, 2009

Inglemoor Cooperative Preschool

Right after we had Morgan, Kathy, Steve's mom, kept recommending taking Morgan to a Co-op Preschool. I had looked around at several, but none of the ones I looked at appealed to me until a friend of ours on Facebook recommended this awesome looking one in Kirkland...

http://www.inglemoorcooperativepreschool.org/Index.html
(for some reason blogger isn't letting me make this a click through link..so if you want to check it out copy and paste)

It looks really nice and their Philosophy of learn through play is right in sync with our way of thinking and parenting thus far. It is very affordable and it starts September 14th so we still have time to enroll. My only concern is the fact that I will have a newborn at home that Morgan may bring illness home to. With the Swine Flu scare going around it worries me. I think I am going to call the Pediatrician and see what they recommend. Steve doesn't want to let the Swine Flu scare us into not participating in life activities yet I am much more paranoid and would rather us all just stay locked inside until next year. ;) hahaha. I wish.

Aside from the illness worry, I am really excited to get him in. The classes look really fun and enriching.

In other Morgan related news, we have officially weened him from the bottle to the sippy cup. He originally started drinking from the sippy cup once we bought these awesome Nuby ones a friend suggested that have a soft tip, but he still wanted his bottle. Who knew all it would take was putting warm water in the bottle and milk in the sippy cup and letting him choose. Haha. As Steve put it best it only took once for the evil bottle to betray him with warm water for him to completely accept the sippy cup full of milk as his new friend. We also switched him to rice milk because first, there is a slight estrogen worry about too much soy and secondly, the soy milk we had him on was causing him major gas. I mean major gas!!! Ewww. Since he has been drinking the rice milk it virtually went away over night.

Next on our list is the dreaded binky. We only give it to him at nap time and at night time so we are slowly working on removing it all together. It's going to be a tough one.

Friday, September 4, 2009

Pain Management dilemma

So, as I posted prior I have serious back pain right now. It is extremely painful to the point of feeling nauseated and in tears. Sitting is really painful and standing up is scary because my back suddenly spasms in such a sharp and severe way it is paralyzing causing me to either not stand at all or tightening my back so bad that I cannot stand straight. Some things that trigger the pain more is slight bends like over the sink to wash my hands, showering, going to the bathroom, sitting, standing up, picking up Morgan, and standing for long periods like cooking, etc. Basically, the only time I am semi-comfortable is laying in bed which even that has its downsides after so long.

I wanted to share what it's like not for sympathy but so that I could explain my dilemma more clearly. I have 18 days until my C-section. I have been taking Percocet to ease the pain so that I can care for Morgan. The scary thing is I am taking 4-5 pills a day and I am still in pain. I am home alone with him 4 days a week from 6am-4pm. I have to cuddle him, cook for him, feed him, change him, etc. However, the pain is much more tolerable and allows me to function at a basic level while taking the pills. When I am not taking them I cannot pick him up and I can barely walk.

My dilemma is this, I am frightened to death that Lily will be born with withdrawal symptoms from the Percocet. If this was to happen she would be placed in the NICU and not with me in my room. I would not get that invaluable bonding time with her the very first days and other people would be caring for her which kills me. What kills me more is the thought of her suffering any kind of side effect from me taking the Percocet. My plan has been to stop taking the Percocet a week before the c-section and Steve will be able to work from home so I would be on bed rest. I was told by my primary care doctor this would be the safest way to avoid her being born with withdrawal symptoms. My thoughts right now are what if she comes early?? I wouldn't have been off the Percocet to allow her to get it out of her system. Also, what if I do stop a week before but she still suffers some side effect from me taking the pills at all??

Right now I don't know what to do. I am in severe pain yet the health of my baby is high priority to me. At the same time I have to be able to care for Morgan too. I just don't know what to do. I keep thinking perhaps I can tough it out and not take the Percocet. Today I only took two in the morning and then I let it wear off which caused me to not be able to stand straight and I was literally sweating from the pain. I took two in the evening so that I could function again after this little experiment.

I am looking for opinions, advice, random thoughts, anything. Let me know what you think. You can either comment here or email me at melissawax@comcast.net or you can call me too!

The magic of displacement

Last night we packed up and headed down to the Forest Park swim center with Gypsy and her girls and went swimming. It was wonderful! All the weight was off my back for a heavenly hour and a half. I didn't want to get out. I seriously would just stay in until the 23rd if I could. :) Getting out of the pool was not so fun as all the weight came back down on my back. The weird thing is while I was in the pool I could really feel the shape and size of Lily in my tummy. It was a very strange feeling. I am going to try and convince Steve to take me back but it's a lot of work packing us all up and getting there so we will see. The pool was colder than usual and poor Morgan didn't last too long in it until he started shivering. Although, he seemed to have fun for the most part while he was in. There was a lot to take in so he was pretty serious as he watched all the kids and toys flying through the air at first. We put him in this floating baby raft type thing and pushed him around the pool it was so cute. He kicked his legs a bunch and splashed. Gypsy's daughters did really well in the pool. They had swim lessons this summer and Aria was swimming around all over the place and Natasha floated and kicked around with a life jacket and noodle. Aria was incredibly brave and even went off the rope swing! I was very impressed. I think I mustered enough courage only once at that age to go off the rope swing. ;)

I think we may try the Lynnwood pool next time because it is supposed to be 80 degrees rather than in the 60's that the Everett pool was at. Brrr!

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Baby Lily and Morgan

I went to the OBGYN today and Lily got a clean bill of health. I have 20 days left! I explained to the OB what was going on with my back and how severe the pain is and he agrees with my doctor that pain killers are the only way to go right now. Physical therapy would not help and they can't take her out early so the 23rd is for sure the date. Apparently, the narcotics they have prescribed will not harm Lily. She may have slight withdrawal (which is upsetting to me) but she will not get addicted in such a short time. I am going to stop taking the pain killers a week before the surgery to avoid any kind of withdrawal though just to be safe. Basically, I need to really take it easy and try and stay put which is very hard for me. I feel like I need to be doing a million things right now to prepare and even though my brain says yes physically I can't.

I also went out to the mall today and bought a couple items of clothing for Fall and for after I am no longer pregnant. I figured I should do it now since I won't be able to for a long while. Shopping just about killed me and I actually thought I wasn't going to make it out at one point. My back just gave out and wouldn't let me stand. Another wake up call that I am really pregnant and in bad shape. I just need to stay home. It's very frustrating.

I haven't edited any photos yet so instead you will get a little news update. Morgan has figured out how to climb up on the furniture all by himself causing no end of trouble. This morning he tried to climb out of his crib and got his leg stuck through the top rung which was actually a saving grace because he would have fallen right out if it wasn't for that. He was very unhappy with his situation when I came in and found him.

He also really likes to share with the dogs. It is cute but not so cute at times. For instance when you are trying to get him to eat dinner or lunch and he keeps feeding the dogs his food. I think I am going to have to lock the dogs out while I feed him and let them in to clean up at the end. He also likes to share his stuffed animals with the dogs and his binky. He will hold them over the gate and let the dogs lick whatever it is he is holding and then he will put it directly into his mouth. Yuck! I try and ignore that. :)

I'm sure I am forgetting some major piece of news but I'll update more once I am not so brain dead.